Half a year in 2010 is such a memorable time i had. So many memories. Sweet stuff ^-^ but the other half was an unexpexted. It was the bad time ever!!! So idk 2010= great or bad. And i don feel 2011 will be a great year for me :( i just don feel it.

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Sooo tiirreedd... Went for band and got my appointment liao...
Shane: assistant band major
Shaqim: assistant drum major
Me: assistant concert master
Oooohhh greaatt :x nvm i will try and do my very best. I will learn from david ^-^ jiayou athirah ^-^ yayness.. So now, wonderfools got two majors ^-^ yayness.. NYOHOHOHO.

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My tooth is pain!!! It wanna fall but its not falling :( i keep on forcing it to fall.... But the more i force the painful it is.... Same goes as hmmm..... Yeah... When its painful, u can never wanna hold it anymore.... Haizzzz.....
2011 please be good to me!!! Please make 2011 an awesome year!!! No more spending half a year crying... No more making my half a year fragile, hurt. 2011 please dont give me pain and hurt!!!!! Not anymore!!!

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I am just freaking confuse... I dont know wad i want... I don't know leh.... Haizzz...
I just dont wish to feel the pain and hurt again. You can never never know how i felt. I cant imagine myelf in that position again!
Arghhh.... Aiyoyooyo....

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Heyhey ^^ i am on my way home from visiting my grandpa at hospital...
I have not yet finished my holiday homework. Haizzz...

I..i...i've been feeling so weird. LOL!! but i know i should not feel this way. Darn it!!!

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SANTA CLAUSE IS COMING TO TOWN ! Merry christmas kiddoss ^^ !! Hope you have a great christmas ahead ! Be good , cause Santa doesn't like naughty kids (: P.S. Try not to ask for Athirah this christmas cause so many people want me for christmas that Santa can't possibly fulfil everyone's requests considering there's only one of me HAHAHA JOKE . MERRY CHRISTMAS PRICKS LOVE ALL OF YOU.
HOHOHOHO!!! MERRY CHRISTMAS ^^ HAHA.
ITS SO FUN WISHING EVERYONE MERRY CHRISTMAS.. Eventhough i did not celebrate christmas ^^ hahahahaha.

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I cried! I cried!!! Someone came into my mind.... And i cried! Haizzz..
If only you knew i miss you....
Why would it always start with a smile and end with a tears! Bloody shit lo. Argh.. I should not cry whenever it comes to you anymore....

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argh.... my heart is not in peace... DARN IT! LOL.

wt wth.. i... i... i... want... aiyoyo.. zzzz-.- alamak why am i feeling all this.... zzz... this isn't the right time leh... haizzz... see la... now my heart keep on pumping so fast.. lol. haiyoyoyo...

i want go back in there leh.. aiya.no hope de la. lols. 

bla bla bla bla bla .......

Non living might not be alive. But sometimes its precious and needed to be taken care of.. Zz. Haizz.. Idk why but today mood not that good.
Morning went jogging with my wonderfools. Then went rp do hw. But i end up playing piano ^^ woah then got a guy that i dont know, talk to me ^^ he has the same passion as me. Which is piano^^ though he dont know how to play, he is willing to try. Hehe. ^^ caught him looking at me. Nyohohoho. LOLOLOL.

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Today's moon is so beautiful ^^ its a full moon. Hahas. Sorry for not posting anything. Idk wad to say abt. Lols.
I am kinda worried abt my hw. Lols. Okay going to send my mother to work so bye.

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Today was fun but tiring leh. Sectionals with teck whye so fun lo^^ hahaha laugh like retard!!! Goodness. ^^ then dance dance!!! Fun fun fun lo!!!!! Nyohohoho... Then went meet syafiq and jane at northpoint.. Tired.. From there on like no mood cause tired. Then aft that go causeway wait for shane to go home and put his sax. So we eat lunch there. Then went queensway shopping centre buy bag. Yayness ^^ then dance at mrt station hahaha!! Then went civic level 6 dance dance again. Then kena chase out. Alamak. So now i am home. Everytime go out with wonderfools sure frm morning till night ^^ nyohoho!!

You asked me once and i reject you. I am sorry. I don't think i am ready for another relationship. My heart is still close despite all the good things. Please dun call me dear. For i am not your dear..... I just don't wan to see myself in the situation that i could not take it. I don't wanna see myself fall AGAIN. I don't wanna get hurt neither do i wanna see myself crying over a guy!
I am so sorry but to reject you again.

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I am so pissed off!!!!!!!!! You are so biased!!!!!!!!!!!! All i need is attention and your love!!!!!!??!!!! U think wad??!!? I only 14 now and u think i can live on my own ar???!!!? If u think that way, i tell u, you are BLOODY DAMN WRONG!!!! He is just one year younger!!! Just ONE YEAR YOUNGER!!? AND U TREAT HIM WAY WAY WAY BETTER THEN ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!????!!!!!!!
TAKE ME FOR GRANTED LA... ASK ME DO THIS AND THAT... ASK ASK ASK... YOU TREAT AND TALK TO ME, AS IF I AM YOUR BLOODY MAID!!!! HATE ME??? DONT LIKE SEE MY FACE???!!!! THEN WHY GAVE BIRTH TO ME!!!!!!
AAAAARRRRGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!???????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HWJSBANWHQ AHABAHHAVAAJAHAV

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wee.. currently at my cousin house.. ^^ complete 4 math assignments. left two and lazy to finish all of it.. haiyoyo.. well i am gonna do my english on friday ^^ haha. okay tmr going teck whye for sectionals. Then buy tickets for the philyouth concert.. broke man... haizz... just now morning told my mom abt the bag liao. so hopefully she will give me the money tmr. HOPEFULLY LO! kinda bored now. and i don't wish to continue on my homework. tmr will be out the whole day AGAIN. hopefully this time round, nothing will spoil my mood lo. hehe.

i don't know why, but today i keep on singing this song again and again. -.-
yes it remind me of you, it reminded me of all the sweetest memories ever, but it also reminded me the pain and hurt you gave me. it reminded me of how silly i am crying over you. it reminded me of how long for me to accept the fact and to move on. Why must you appear in my mind today all of sudden? why must i remember all those stuffs again. i've been smiling, laughing and i've been MY REAL ME for the past few weeks. so why should i stop being who i am. i manage to laugh like a retard again. so why should i stop doing that? i should not stop doing anything that make me happy! in fact i should STOP doing something that make me hurt,sad and cry!!!

Today was TOTALLY AWESOME!!! YAY!!!! Okay first went meet each other at 1030. Then we went ikea at queenstown to buy christmas present for sir. Then went eat lunch at kfc. Aft that we went queenstown shopping centre.. Omg! I seriously wan that bag. Damn it. Have to beg my mom for money ba. Haiz. Okay then we went vivocity. Took alot of pictures^^ haha. Then we laugh here and there! FUN LO. then at first we wanted to go marina barrage watch sunset. But reach there like going rain. So we walk walk at marina bay sands there and the marina shoppes mall. LOL. Then took mrt home from marina mrt station. Wth lo. Get into the train got like smelly gas come out. Then we all faster get out of the train cause scared. Then we took another train then stuck halfway in the tunnel for few min. Then pass by ang mo kio the train opposite was full of gas... Smelly but scary.. Sekali got bomb how. LOL. Then drop of at yishun and take bus. Then in the bus we all we the noisiest Lol. Hahaha.. We dance,we sing and we laugh!!! Wahahahaha!!! Nyoyoy. :D fun day!!! Awesome!!!
Okay tmr HOMEWORK DAY. Morning go cousin house at serangoon at 6 am. Then aft rush meet diyana weekee and adawiyah and do homework again at rp. Weee. I wont be meeting them at weekee's house then. Will just meet them at RP. Yayness ^^ hahaha.. Okay nighty. ^^

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Alamak. She spoil my mood. I asked her if i can be home before 9pm. Cause we all wanna go watch sunset at marina barrage.. Then i said i will do the household when i get back. Then she replied, my bro this and that alr.. Wth. How can she expect me to do the household? They last min change time. And i was rushing. She still can said i leave house just like that without doiNg any household. WTH! but yesterday i stay at home the whole day, do this cook that while my brother went out without doing anything also!!!! Damn la!??
She is so biased!!! She keep on praising him only. If i do wad she ask me do, she didnt even say thank you lo!!! Didnt even praise lo!!!! Everything my brother!!! As if he so PERFECT!!!!! BIASED!!!!! she only knows to complain everything to me....... WHAT THE HELL!! now i dont think tmr and thursday i can go out.. Even if i go. I will feel guilty... All thanks to her... Damn it... Everything my fault la.. Only she and my brother correct....

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Currently in mrt with my beloved woderfools^^ hmmmm... Facebook fighting is so fun LOL. Okay.
Somehow i feel rather lonely. Zzz. Okay. I dont know wad to say liao. BYE.

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Argh!!! I know things will turn out bad. Darn it!!! WTH. i hate it when things become like this. Why must i feel as if i am annoying to you. Zzzzz... Argh.

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Weee... Argh wake up with an heavy head. :o haha. Yesterday dream was nice ^^ hehe. Yesterday stalker sia!!!! Seriously. Our prediction was all CORRECT!! When we reach dover, i anyhow say eh wei kiet then shane was like "where wei kiet" then i said just kidding. Then when i turn to the right he was there!! HAHA!! Adawiyah must be happy lo ^^ hahahaha.. Thn aft concert went lot 1. Purposely choose that place cause we all predict that wei kiet was there. And again CORRECT. HAHA.Wei kiet. LOL. yesterday the concert was okay la but it was fun cause laugh laugh laugh. Haha. Can u imagine a composer running along the beach!! Sitoshi running along the beach!! HAHAHAHA!! made me laugh out loud during the concert sia. HAHAHAHA!!
Then reach home at 11.30. When i want go home, from bus stop and my house so far. Still need walk. Then got one indian guy standing. Somehow i must walk pass him. Then he stare at me like one kind. Ew. Then i walk faster lo. I look behind he still looking. Scary sia. But afternoon more scary. I want meet diyana. Then i was crossing the road, then got one van slow down and horn me. Then the guys inside the van was like looking and making sound at me! Scary sia! Like they wan kidnap sia. Slow down and horn somemore.
Everytime i wan meet diyana sure got guys or even old man disturb me de.. Scary sia.... Seriously lo.. Dun dare walk alone eh... Okay talk enough le. I going bukit batok i think. Bye.

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Omg!!! Christ the horn player look like sunny!! Hahaha!!! His eyes looks exactly like sunny. Haha.. Oh okay... The concert was okay la^^ haha.. But zulhafeez not here aw..... Haha okay.. Going eat now ^^

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Morning ppl!! ^^ hahaha i just woke up :o hehe. Yesterday slept at 9+ and now i just woke up. See how tired i was ^^ haha. Must be because i gave my 101% during band with teck whye. ^^ hehe.

Just finished helping my mother with household. -.- tired le. Zzz.
Yay. Concert today ^^ will be out till late night. Muahaha. ^^

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Combine band with teck whye was awesome!!!! Hahahaha!!! Yay!! Piccolo and flute, cheers ^^ haha. Today fun fun fun lo ^^ haha. But i skipped my breakfast and lunch :o haha. If there is another opportunity to reherse with TW i sure go de ^^ wee.. ^^
Tmr concert wohhhooo!! Jiayou david ^^ aw zulhafeez dun have :o spoil la..
LOL. Haha okay tired le. Going sleep. Night beautiful world :D

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Gosh. Idk wads wrong with me today. -.- didn't talk and laugh much. But i played well during full band and was complimented by sir too. So shouldn't i be happy? Well i guess something/someone is missing in the band. Thats why. Zzz...
Tmr going teck whye for band. 0.0 kinda scared 0.0 ohmy... Meeting my wonderfools at mac 7AM! -.- then band until 3. For sure reach home late de. Zz. Oh but who cares ^^ tmr no one will be home. So can go home late. Yay. Hahaha.
Sian sian sian.. I'm seriously missing __. Haizzz.... :(

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Ahhh... Sad la sad la... Last day of band alr leh.. Why nvr come.. WTH!!

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i cant post pictures now.. Cause i am using phone to blog since my com is down. Aw.. But who cares abt pic rite? LOL.

All i want for xmas is YOU!!! ;D <3
HAHAHA.. Can i? ^^

Ooo tmr vince birthday.. O.o i haven buy anything leh. Haha.. Will delay his present ^^

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Hah... This few days, i never fail to laugh out loud and smile from ear to ear ^^ weeeee~~~~ <3
I feel love <333 hahahahaha!!
Yay. This saturday going for a concert weee.. 23 december i am going to another concert too!!! Wee!! 23 dec is a must!! ;D hahahahah!!!! Cant wait cant wait! ;D i HIGH 0.0 ;D Yay TMR GOT BAND!!!. MEANING I CAN MEET EVERYONE ^^ HAHA HOHO HIHI..

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Woohoo.. Yesterday i hardly breathe.. Laugh till my stomach pain. ^^ like finally ^^ haha.. Smile till my mouth pain. Haha ^^ but seriously lo.. Haha.. Sigh today no band, so SIAN...
Idk why this came to me.. But i know eventually it will just go away just like that. Haha. No use de la. Somemore i dun see wads so special abt it. 0.0 haha.

I shall wait and see ^^ <3

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Waiting for adawiyah and diyana.. Woah so long. I usually reach sch ard this time alr lo. Haiyo..

I finally tore those stupid stuff. Yay! Its like finally ^^ hahaha.. So glad i did it lo. Muahaha. Okay off to band now.

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Feel the fear, do it anyway ^^
I felt the fear,i felt the pain, and i've overcome it ^^ i know i did.

Weee... Tmr got band... Woah... Hahahaha.. Yay.. Feel like learning another new song for piano. Something challenging.. But wad song? Haiyo... Haha.. Okay i wanna sleep le. Have not been sleeping well this few days. 0.0 so night night.

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Today so sian!!! Ahhh... I wan to go to the pop concert!!! But unfortunately, its gonna start in 30 min time. Wth?!?! So siann... Seriously... My cough has become from bad to worse-.- haiyoooo.... Bored leh... Zzzzz...........

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Just reach home ^^ omg today band was AWESOME!!! teck whye sec so nice sia.. Hahaha.. I love their big ass fan ^^ hahaha.. I cannot believe that i actually forget.to bring.my piccolo! -.- hahaha... Nvm but it was.awesome!! Both band was great ^^ hahaha i am so happy. ^^.happy to be surrounded by people that love and care for me.^^ oh well i am so tired. I only slept for like 4 hours ONLY leh.. Zzzzz....

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Band exchange tmr. I have not yet sleep -.- haizz... Hmmm... I sat and look on my table. Saw the pink small soft toy and those 99 hearts he gave me ^^ and was wondering only if the 100th heart was his own heart ^^ haha. Only if. Well at least this time round when the past came into my mind, there aren't tears flowing ^^ i have to find a way to make me sleep!! Argh..

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Wah wth. My father went into my room without me knowing. -.- when i went into my room i saw him holding a picture of me with sunny! LOL! I wasnt surprise though. Cause he saw that picture before in my phone too. Wah my mother start nagging again -.- i never do wad she ask me to do she nag. I do wad she ask me to do she oso nag. Zzzz!! This saturday band exchange! Gosh! Yay sam is coming ^^ aw i cannot go to the pop concert le :( wtf! Haizz... Siann... Okay bye. Hahaha.. I sound so random 0.0

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Fall in love when you are ready not when you are lonely.
Am i lonely? No i am not! I am surrounded by my lovely,caring, AWESOME friends. ^^ i feel loved ^^ haha. Band camp-bbq, alot of alumni came back ^^ some of them made me feel loved ^^ hahahahahaha.. It was so awesome ^^
Now i am so so so sick :( aiyo..

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Home sweet home finally. Now i am getting sicker. -.- its like i have not have enough sleep on my bed after the leadership camp and now i am going to sleep back into my sleeping bag-.- but my sleeping bag damn comfortable ^^ hahahaha.. People are jealous ops sorry people :) tired now i gotta rest now.

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I am currently in school having band now -.- i am so sick of camp!! And sick too!! Flu and cough! Wth! Argh... I wan go home -.- now band camp sian lo. Camp oso got training. Aiya nvm la. But i dun wan stay overnight!-.-

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Woah... So tired sia today :( band from 8am-6pm :( sexy voice and flu. ^^ hahaha.. I am really carving ice cream and orea!!!!! Walao... But wait! Zena and aiin, is going to give me oreo tmr! YAY! ;D But i want eat ice cream now :( ulhaq very bad :( dun wan treat me :( hahaha.. Tired liao. Going to rest ^^ BBBYYYEE ;D

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Awww... Just finished looking all the pictures that mdm rehana uploaded ^^ AWESOME!!!! hahaha... Got one pic, vince and i cried!! Awwww :) first time saw him cried ^^ i miss those days. Those days was the perfect,awesome,memorable,lovely days ever!!!!!!;DDD those were the days i cried with HAPPY TEARS!!!! awww.... Sigh tmr band.. Hmmm.. Shall see how the day will turn out ^^

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Weee~~~ i am going eat lunch outside!!!! Hahaha... I am so sick eating maggi -.- now i am craving alot of things. Gosh... I want to eat BK. I want to eat roti prata. I want to eat chocolate. I want chocolate ice cream. I want to drink doubble chocolate frappe. I want to eat chocolate cake. I want to eat eat eat eat!! Haiyo..... Everything chocolate.. Hahahaha! Chocolate lover <3. But my throat hurt badly. LOL. November is going to end soon. I was busy and fully packed with plan during nov. So december i am going to be serious and complete all my homework! YAY. Gonna make a study date with rebecca ^^ homework homework i'm going to hunt and eat you!! HAHA!! ;D

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Oh my god!! My voice ^^ sexy ^^ hahahaha... Sore throat like finally. First day camp shout till my lungs came out but nvr get sore throat.. -.- camp end then have LOL. Everyday camp, rain! And we all still continue doing the activity despite the rain! Fun kayaking in the rain ^^ woohhoo ^^ haha.. Bet i am gonna get sick one day. 1st day of camp, i woke up in the middle of the night, and cried in pain! Seriously! My hands,leg are all pain and cold!! Really cannot tahan and i cried in pain to sleep. Then i took panadol and sleep. The rest of the days, i manage to sleep well ^^ i manage to overcome my fear of hieght ^^ weee~~ hahaha.. I miss the fun :( i want go there again!!!!! 5 days 4 night only but time flies so fast.. Aw.... Hah....

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HELLO!!!! I AM BACK!!!! weeeee.... It was a very fun, interesting camp! They help me alot. I really enjoy. I finally became myself! ;D just now when going home, we had to talk and give something to those people we want to thank. I cried like hell but it was worthy. 9 people thank me. I still remember wad justin told me, he said "thank you for being such a nice friend of mine. I see you as a flower and i believe that one day you WILL bloom beautifully " ;D i am learning to step up slowly after stepping down for months. I will become a great leader and i know i can! Everyone see me having the potential. Everyone told me i improve alot ;D Haha!! Yay!! Hiphip horray!! ;D just now went bck took bus, a aunty sat beside me asking if i am going for camp or just came back, so i told her just came back. Then she said "wow very tiring right? But i see you very happy, must have been enjoying lo" then i laughed and nod my head. Its like finally! A stranger see and tell me that i very happy! Like for the pass few months, everyone was like why so emo -.- but not anymore!!!! Wahahahaha!!!! I am so damn happy! I gain lots of confident and i become my old self! ;D Hahaha. Okay will post later. Tired le. ^^

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My stomach is hurting me :( i had a big blister on my leg :( so pain! :'( couldnt walk properly. :( i think i am falling sick. Well not surprise cause i've been skipping my meal and i have not been sleeping well this days :( now i am on my way to malaysia. Will be back in the afternoon. I brought my book along ^^ its gonna be bored :x
Haix.. Lately no messages liao :( only weiteck text me :x haixx... T.T

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Omg!! I am hungry :x LOL. I did not ate my breakast, lunch and dinner :( now my stomach is crying! Oh my. Oh but wait!! I am walking to admiralty with my brother now! Going mac!! Yay!!! Hahahahah!!! Long time never eat mac. Haha. Haiz. I still have not started packing my bag yet. Have not even check if i have all the things needed. :x and monday i will be going to sch with vince as usual -.- not sure if i am looking foward to this camp -.- oh well.. Will post tmr. I wanna eat eat eat!

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Wee :) i've just plan my days to do all homework :) i cant touch any homework on november:( busy with band and camps. December will finish up all homework:) i am alone at home now :( so naybe going library later to borrow some books. :) at least i can read whenever i am bored :) and i am going to bring books to camp too :) hehe. Okay not all item i have :( but tmr going go shop for it! :) worried for my juniors later :( all flute senior will be gone :( will they survive? 0.0 haha jiayou hor!!! :D

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During our first monthsary,he gave me a very cute small soft toy. Then he gave me a blue pilot pen as a replace of my pen that he misplace. Then he gave me a so called braclet that he made using wire during dnt lesson. And he said this "if one day your hand is small enough, wear it" then somewhere to our 4month, he gave me a 99 heart that made of straws. And every movie we watched, he was the one who paid. And our last movie tgt was on the 25 of jun. All this gifts is very precious. But of all of this gift, the gift that i treasure alot, love alot and care alot is HIM, the guy i truly love. This gift gave me alot of love,care. This gift made me jealous whenever i saw anyone trying to take him away frm me. This gift made me feel safe and made me be myself. But unfortunately, i lost this gift. I lost him. So who ever that found this gift, please treat him with alot of care and love. And most important thing, don't ever ever hurt him!! If you found him and if he belongs to you one day, do sing to him 'your are my sunshine' cause i sang to him that too!
Your truly,
Athirah..........

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How hard is it to stop loving? Its as hard as to stop your eye from blinking. The more you try, the more it hurts.

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I don't know if i am getting over him, or maybe i am getting used of the pain.

If thats the case.. Its sad :(

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I used to love you TOO MUCH. Thats the reason why it hurts to let go of you. But now i guess the 'too much' is gone. And it left with only ' i love you' . And at least now, i began to accept it. And at least now, there are no longer unexpected tears :) though i am still trying to smile and laugh like i used to :)

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Its a good start. Its a good thing. Now i am so glad!!!!!! Weee.... Whatever it is i shall not let anything that gonna make me fragile AGAIN. Not anymore. I really hate being FRAGILE!!!

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Mungkin ini semua berlaku terlalu cepat. Mungkin ini semua setakat ujian daripadaNYA. Mungkin aku tidak layak menjadi kekasihnya. Mungkin juga dia tidak sesuai bagiku. Kalau nk lafazkan semua pekara dlm otakku sekarang, byk sekali 'mungkin' akan ku letak. Mengelirukan ya? Tetapi buat sekali2 teringin juga aku melihatmu membuat sesuatu pengorbanan dan bukti bahawa kamu masih cinta kanku. Daripada aku asyik tanya dirimu. Bukan kah kamu merasai bahawa ia sangat irratating?? Kenapa ku melihat mu mudah putus asa? Haizzzzzz..... Nasib la. Apa nak buat. Cobaan. Aku akan tabah menerima :)

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Sometimes i just hope to see an effort being made. But from the start nothing can be seen. Perhaps i am blind...
Oh whatever........

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Sometimes, the people you can't live without, can live without you.
Isn't that sad :( :'(

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0.0 i didn't cry. ^^ weeee~~~ i accept it. I accept the fact. Things change,people change, and so is your feelings towards me and my feelings towards you. I didn't cry this time round. Not even a single tears. :) well all i need to do is look infront and never look back again.. No matter if it is a happy history or a sad history it is already a history. It has already happen. So no point,no use looking back. Nothing can be done right? I've come to my sense. I have realise. And all thanks to you.

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Haiz. Feel so lost. Feel so lonely. Feel so sad. Mixed feelings. I........ Idk. Nvm.

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I am entering the period of doubt. Can i just start a fresh. Without anymore doubt and problems?

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It used to be something special to me. Notice its a past tense > used.
Well nothing can be done now.

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Its been a long time that we have not had this kind of long conversation tgt :) thank you for making my day. Actually i wasn't in a good mood but you manage to made me smile and even laugh ^^ thank you.
Though there is something missing in this convo but nvm. Haha. No big deal.

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Oh my goodness!!!!!! How on earth can i just stop it?! Why must it be this hard?! Why must it be This hurt?!
Why are my tears flowing out like a running tap AGAIN??!!!!!!!!!!!
I CANNOT TAKE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Why am i not doing wad i
should be doing?! Why are my tears flowing again? I thought i did it? Didn't i? Why is it so hard and so hurt?! Haizz.... :'(

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Lets face the truth. I will never get to be with you again.
Truth hurts, life have to go on.
-athirah

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Well i guess its time!
So goodbye?

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Sometimes I just smile to cover up the pain. Sometimes I just laugh to cover up the hurt. But whether I smile or laugh, I can never hide what I really feel.

Its usless.... Its not WORTH...
Why am i so weak... Why am i so stubborn....everyone tot i am okay now... But am i really ok??!! I dont think so... In fact i am NOT ok... Even if you ask why,you can never understand..... No point talking or telling oso lo.. So mind as well i fake a smile.... Its as if i tell, you people can help one.. Hah.. Yeah right...
Arghhhhhh.................................

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You promise me something.... But the promise was broken!! BROKEN! wads the use then.... Arghh.... Fucking pissed off!! Damn pisses off!!!!

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Like I told you, I could have someone else if I wanted too, but I don't, because I want you and only you.

THERE ARE THINGS THAT WE DO NOT WANT TO HAPPEN BUT HAVE TO ACCEPT, THINGS WE DO NOT WANT TO KNOW BUT HAVE TO LEARN, AND PEOPLE WE CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT BUT HAVE TO LET GO.

Going to be a rose? Haha.. Maybe i shd.. Yes i must ^^ hahaha....

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decision is FINAL.. sorry but i have to reject you.. i don't love you and i don't think i can go through another relationship... 


i guess it's time... it's time for everything.... i shall not look back anymore.... not anymore... though its tough, i know i can do it... hopefully? i guess its not worth if i did not move on?? perhaps... -.-
oh well BBBBYYYYEEEEEE........

I'm crying letting you go of from my life. I'm suffering trying to accept the fact. I'm trying to be strong and move on... And i think it's time.... To accept the fact,to move on,to be strong and to let you go.. Maybe i shall stop having faith and hope on you.. Give up is the right thing to do??? Idk.... Haiz.....

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Dear life, why are you giving me all this test? Why is it so challenging? Don't you know i am not strong enough to go through all this?? Don't you know i mean wad i said and nothing can change it?? Haizz
I just hate the word 'EMO' i hate it when ppl describe me as EMO. come on la people... We are all human being. Its natural for us. Going through something very pain and hard and being QUIET for a day. That does not mean EMO. Please la ha...
So please god give me light to this darkness in my life righy now. Please....

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Why must it be him? Why can't it be you??? Why?? Exam over liao. Want to enjoy feel kinda worried though.. My result are yet to be confirm ma... Sigh.. Oh wadever pass liao.. No point. I very sian la!! Damn sian la.... Haizzz

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You were never supposed to mean this much to me; I was never supposed to fall too hard. But you know what? I did and that's the truth, that's what keep me holding on because it hurts to let you go.

WEE... taking a rest now after studying for like two hours just now ^^ tmr english paper but i'm studying geog O.o language paper cannot study one lo. :P haha. 

GOOD LUCK TO ME AND YOU !! ALL THE BEST!! JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!!!!!! ^^

i've tried, and you may say i manage to move on... but the truth is i've not...  since its exam period, i'm putting my studies first.. and i shall not think too much about it now.. though i'm tired, i continue as i don't want to cause any problems... is it me or is it you? i have no idea.... i've tried to understand you perhaps i failed..

i can't breathe without you, but i have to. 

hey, i don't think i going to post anything alr. perhaps i change my url (and not going to tell anyone my url) OR i will post but wont be so often as there's nothing happy in my life le ^^ so yeah! BBYEE !! 

times flies, people change. but my feelings towards you never change. not even abit. Do you???
feel like crying! feel like giving up but don't know on wad !! :'( i'm confuse. i really don't know wad to do. i hate my life now!!!! :'( :'(

Falling in love with him is something I hadn’t expected. but being in love with him is something I couldn’t stop even if I tried.

Will you make my birthday wish come true? if i were to wish for you to be mine? if were to wish to have you back? if i were to wish to be with you forever? will you??? :'(

I'm so tired of waiting here
you know, don't you know just how I feel
I'm so tired of waiting here
do you even still remember my name

if a day goes by, I'll still remember you
if a month goes by, I'll still hold on to you
can you just try to understand how I feel

 I'll go crazy cause I'm waiting here
and every day feels like it's just been a year
oh I, I'm still waiting here,
I kept on thinking that you would just come back
or if I turned around, then you'd be smiling back
oh I, I'm going crazy

I'm still holding back, until you come back
and yes,, I'm waiting for you
if a month goes by, I'll still remember you
if a year goes by, I'll still hold on to you
can you just try to understand how I feel


why does it have to be so hard
and everything's crazy in my head
waiting, waiting, Waiting, so long
still no answers, just a song
it didn't have to be so hard
why did you have to make it so hard


I'll be waiting, even for a year
and even for a decade, I'll be waiting here
Oh  I'll wait until I die.

i don't know wad i want. i don't know wad i want to do now. i don't know where to go now. i am totally lost! you know wad, i wish that i can get an car accident that can make me lost my memories. then i know no one! isn't that gonna be better for me?? i will forget everyone!! i will forget all the pain and hurts. isn't that good? i just wan to be happy! i don't wan to fake it! i seriously hate myself now! everyday before i sleep, i wish and hope that i can go through this alone. ALONE. but i can't. i really can't! no one will understand me. no one will understand how i feel. NO ONE WILL UNDERSTAND! :'( god, please guide me through this. show me the right path. give me the strength to face this. if possible don't make me be in this kind of situation. i really couldn't face it and i really couldn't take it. its really hard for me. turn the darkness into light, will you? .. invisible tears are the hardest to wipe away!

Strange day for me today and worst moment(s) EVER! :@ :( :'(  hate it le... who shall i go to when i'm down now?? :( who shall/can make me happy back?? i doubt no0ne de :( sob sob :'( bahhh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
SHUTUP LA ATHIRAH!! STOP THINKING ALL THIS LA!!!!!!!!! BITCH!!

Ask me why I keep on loving you when it's clear that you don't feel the same way for me... the problem is that as much as I can't force you to love me, I can't force myself to stop loving you.

I didn't want my picture taken because I was going to cry.  I didn't know why I was going to cry, but I knew that if anybody spoke to me or looked at me too closely the tears would fly out of my eyes and the sobs would fly out of my throat and I'd cry.  I could feel the tears brimming and sloshing in me like water in a glass that is unsteady and too full.

I've made my decision but why am i still looking back?? i thought i finally manage to overcome it? damn no ): i realize i was just faking.. for wad? i don't even know for wad and why.. -.- wad i told myself before was just a piece of shit !! why should i promise myself not to do this? its useless! i will still continue doing it!! :@ at the first place why should i bother??! if i don't bother, i will not do this???/ zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz -.- arghhhhhh

14 sept- HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADAWIYAH!
15 sept- HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUNNY!!
16 sept- HAPPY BIRTHDAY JERICK!
17 sept- HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAN QING!
18 sept - no one :D
19 sept- HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!! ♥♥ :D

My eyes have no more tears to cry, but like the sun shining up above, you surround me with your endless love. My life is yours alone, the only love I know. Your spirit pulls me through when nothing else will do. Every night I pray on bended knees, that you'll always be my everything.

Maybe its wrong to say i love you, because i know you never do.
Maybe its wrong to say please love me too because i know someone is waiting for you,
Maybe its wrong to love you more and more each day because i know you're now far away.


Whatever it is i just want you to know that i still love you ! trust me i really do.

 I love you. You make every detail in the world beautiful, and I see how gorgeous and bright everything is. Everything is better, and perfection becomes an understatement. I would not only die for you, I would live for you. You make me feel weightless, you make chores fun - as long as you're by my side - you make my disturbing days into fairy tales, you make me feel like I'm the only person in the world, like suddenly all eyes are on me and I feel infinite, important, and beautiful. You make me feel like the luckiest girl alive.
sunny i love you!!!!!!!!!!!!

no words can ever describe wad/how i am feeling right now! i just can'r stop crying! haiz..............................
ATHIRAH I HATE YOU! CAN YOU STOP BEING WEAK!!! CAN YOU STOP CRYING!!! CAN YOU JUST FORGET IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!! I WAN TO BE MYSLEF!!!! THE GIRL I USED TO BE!! THE GIRL WHO ALWAYS SMILE AND LAUGH LIKE A RETARD!! THE GIRL WHO MAKE PEOPLE LAUGH!! OTHER WORDS; THE GIRL WHO IS ALWAYS CHEERFUL AND HAPPPY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just wan to be me ; the girl i am before !! look at me now??????????!!!!!!!!!!!!! always moody, always fake a smile, always cry!! WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M TIRED!! I AM SERIOUSLY TIRED OF FACING ALL THIS!!


~A million words would not bring you back, I know because I tried, neither would a million tears, I know because I cried

050910 ♥ should be our memorable day for us.. but sadly to say our happy and memorable day ended one month ago. ): )': if you were to ask me if i am still hurt, the ans will be yes. if you were to ask me if i'm still crying over you, the ans will be yes. :'( the pain is still here. my heart is still in pieces. What more can i do? sigh~~ :'(

i'm feeling very lonely and empty ): sigh~ hate this kind of feelings. i want you and i need you by my side ): 

I’m the type of person, who likes to keep everything bottled up. I’m not the type to just break down in front of everyone. I like to put on a fake smile to let everyone know the person outside is smiling, while the person inside is hurting. Then, when I’m finally alone, that’s when I can let everything out. Explaining myself is just too hard, I’d rather be alone and cry, rather than explaining myself while crying.

I miss you a little. A little too much, a little too often and a little more each day.


yes i miss you.. but i can never tell you that anymore. neither could i tell you that i still love you.. cause i'm not your gf alr and i mean nothing to you .. what else can i do? sighh.. anyway got back my progress record . i fail nothing ^^ though i improved, i wasn't happy with the overall. ): position in class 13/38 ! ): aiyo... ): so now i'm gonna use this one week break wisely ^^ haha ! 
Fav quote : ^^

A million words would not bring you back, I know because I tried, neither would a million tears, I know because I cried

i finally tore those paper and OFF they go into the bin! but there's one thing that i dare not to throw ! ): but even if i did. nothing can stop me from _____... cause you're still in my head and still in my heart! i'm down today. but i still fake a smile. but among all the friends i have, only my junior, peilin knew i was faking a smile ^^.  sigh... i don't know wad to say liao. i don't know wad to do liao... why should i bother anyway? its no use! what the use of all this?!!!  sigh~~~~~~ so i should continue and keep working on it !! i don't want more tears rolling down my cheek because of you.. :'(

i am so pissed off with my family :@ i want go to my mother house la ! i love them more !

yesterday was fun :) i break fast at my mother house. cause its her birthday :) then my sister sacrifices her work just to break fast tgt with me :D She ordered pizza :) haha so we ate pizza :) so yesterday i went to her house at 5pm help my mother and 2nd sis with the cake :) we were baking cake for hari raya :D ^^ then after break fast, my mother cut the cake ^^ YAY! :D then went out with my sisters ^^ then they send me home at 10 ): . this is the first time i get to spent time with them until this late lo. i miss them liao ): especially my mother ): and sisters ): sigh~~

i've been trying to forget it. but i can't. All the memories are flowing in my head again. and there's still teardrops. its gonna be one month soon but i sill could not accept the fact?? why?? i'm tired ! :'(  i'm tired of thinking. i'm tired of crying. i'm tired of trying. i'm tired of missing. i'm just tired of everything!! :'( what else can i do? :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'(

I might hug other guys, i might laugh with other guys, i might even hang
out with other guys.. but none of them will ever mean to me as much as 
you do.

I can pretend to be okay with everything. I can pretend to be strong. I can pretend to be genuinely happy. But at the end of the day, pretending isn't satisfying.

Take my hand, I'll take the lead And every turn, will be safe with me Don't be afraid, afraid to fall You know I'll catch you through it all And you can't keep us apart 'Cuz my heart is wherever you are ♥

I'm back from school ! woah so tired after the band investiture ): its was so intensive (drills) sigh.. but we looked smart ^^ xD i'm quiet form morning... dont really know wad i want! i'm lost! totally lost!!!! anyway gave sam the chocolate + card i made. then he gave us (each) 4 kitkat one cracker and two small chocolate. ^^ OOOOOO!!! I was assigned as Assistant section leader !

Hey just came back from causeway ! bought chocolate for sam :) sigh~~ so not excited for tmr :( today break fast alone at home :(

well i knew it! i knew that will be the answer!! But i still don't understand whY?! ...........................................................................................................................................
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Today went band room at 3pm to try the band uniform :) the blazer i took size 'xs' so big sia -.- then when i took size 's' it fits me :D lol.. the the white shirt was big too ): but i never change as i am too lazy to find one :( cause was like too many clothes there and don't know which one is boys one and which one is girls one cause all looked the same and they were mixed tgt :x had a hard time finding the ideal one lo :( so i got mine liao except for the white shirt its big :x but if wear blazer then cannot see :) but if never wear blazer leh... it will be big lo :x :( can't wait for investiture this sat!(yeah right) i got solo leh!!! SOLO :) !! ); but sad to say my family don't wan support me de so i perform my solo to STRANGERS  ): ): oh well nothing can be done here.. :( so gonna buy chocolate for sam (exchange of gifts) i wonder what will he gave us as return? hmm .. But i'm so not looking forward to this saturday ):
i can't bring up the matter liao.. as i know wad i will get in return. and i know i can't bear it. but its killing me inside :x why am i so weak? why can't  i just accept it? why must i dwell on it? why am i such a fool?!

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When the the world comes crashing down and the skies begin to fall,
I'll wait for you.
When the days grow old and long and my skin turns into stone, 
I'll wait for you.
When the pain it seems too much, 
And my heart starts beating out of touch, I don't need a thing,
I'll wait for you. :'(


~I love the way you smile at me. ;)
~I miss you and your silly random texts. ♥


♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ i still love you as much as i love you in the past ! ♥

hey ppl i'm down again :( like always ~ :( though i can laugh and smile , you don't and will never know how i feel inside.. :P anyway yesterday swimming was okay la :) was high when wanna go home ;x lol. hmm i am thinking of wad to give sam for the investiture next saturday! why he vegetarian ?! make my life complicated onli ! LOL ! anyway today school , i wasn't paying attention the whole day ! :P was busy doing something else ! cause i wanna complete it asap! then can give him (not sam) :) but like out of sudden i wanna give sia ? ):
eh i lazy do music ar. Can i not do? but wad if cher scold? ): later i kena ! but i not leader oso . sigh~~ aiyo  nvm le i do abit can liao :) so BYE !!!!!!!!!!!

Lyrics:
Everything's cool, yeah
It's all gonna be okay, yeah
And I know,
Maybe I'll leave and
laugh about it someday

But not today, no
Cause I don't feel so good
I'm tangled up inside
My heart is on my sleeve
Tomorrow is a mystery to me

(Chorus)
And it might be wonderful
It might be magical
It might be everything I've waited for,
A miracle
Oh, but even if I fall in love again
with someone else
It could never be the way I loved you

Letting you go is
making me feel so cold, yeah
And I've been trying to make
believe it doesn't hurt

But that makes it worse, yeah
See, I'm a wreck inside
My toung is tied and my
whole body feels so weak
The future may be all I really need

(Chorus)
And it might be wonderful, yeah
It might be magical, uh oh
It might be everything I've waited for,
A miracle
Oh, but even if I fall in love again
with someone else
It could never be the way I loved you

Like a first love,
the one and only true love
wasn't it written all over my face, yeah
I loved you like you loved me (oh)
Like something pure and holy
Like something that can never be replaced

And it was be wonderful,
It was magical,
It was everything I've waited for,
A miracle
And if I should ever fall in love again
with someone new
Oh, It could never be the way
No, It will never be the way
I loved you.


They way i loved you - selena gomez 
nice song with a very nice lyrics :)

I am down now )': aiyo... i everyday down wan lo... my headache is not getting better ! ): anyway gonna break fast at kfc ! yeah~ :D sigh~~ math textbook dont have how to do math hw ?! aiyo.. some more i very lazy to do hw .. :x sci like so many page le :x math can la 4 question only.. sigh~~~~~~~~~~~ tmr going yog ;x swimming :)

Dear _____ , I need you now ! I want to be with you now !

Yesterday went esplanade for the band concert.. After religious class straight away go out :x tired sia.. so took mrt with 'wonderfools' halfway around yio chu kang feel very dizzy. then i was like hoping people will give seat ! aiyo.. then when i was about to like faint and vomit then ppl give me seat. -.- lucky got one aunty give me plastic bag for me to vomit :D haha ! then feel better abit.. then we went helix bridge before going to the concert. The view was so nice :) sunset was beautiful :) everything is there except you :( LOL... then went for concert :) nice le :) then after concert go mac. :) with seniors :) fun :) haha :) then reach home at 11.50 pm :) HAHA ! :)  now like very tired and no mood le.. so will post tmr if i have time :) been very busy lately. :x

I'M BORED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lol.. i've been thinking of wad to wear to esplanade on sunday for the concert :) ! ): donnoe wan wear skirt or long dress ? but must wear heels :) hahas ! LOL.. 

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i wan you ! :P lol...

The rain falls because the sky can no longer handle its heaviness. Just like the tears. Its falls because The heart can no longer handle the pain.


Hey ! i'm back le :) so tired.. feel like breaking my fast now :x but no ! i must be resilience ! :) hahahas ! School just now was so BORING !! Halfway feel like vomiting again :x and halfway became sad and sad and sad over things again! just can't stop thinking about it! SIGH ~~~ yesterday play with scissors and cut my pointy finger :x then just now play again cut my pinky :x tmr cut my hold hand ! :P hahas ! dont know wad to talk le.. so BBBYYYEEEE~

Things became very awkward and strange for me ): its kinda weird too.. ); why is it turning this way? why is it becoming this way? i don't like it ): but wad can i do? the ans is : NOTHING ..:x
 you people only know how to say and only want to know about things.. but do you people really know how/wad i am feeling? i bet no right? then wads the use of knowing the story ??
Not all people know this, some still thought we still tgt.. and they still wishing last long? i didn't say anything but just smile ~  some ask me we still tgt ? and i said........ ^^ (up to you; readers to think) :) ): 
sigh~~~ don't know wad to do liao luhh sometimes it just pissed me off ... ): got nothing to say le.. i'm tired ); and why am i not receiving your msg ): ?
well ~ bye 

Aiyo.. i thought i would be able to cope it, able to move on.. But today prove me wrong ! zz -.- sigh ~~
was like gonna break down (in the middle of something) but phew .. i was able to control it :)
If i could shout/scream my lungs out, it would be nice.. if i could cry and filled a bucket , it would be amazing, but i can't stop loving you..
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~Tears are words the heart can't express
~He taught me how to love, but not how to stop
~Breaking up is just like having the worst nightmare after having the best dream
~True love is when you shed a tear and still want him
~The times we were happy together are worth the times I cry alone
~Real loss only occurs when you lose something you love more than yourself
~It's amazing how someone can break your heart and you can still love them with all the little pieces
~Wherever you are, you'll always be in my heart 
~In my dreams you're mine forever
~If you love me so much, why are you walking away?
~A million words would not bring you back, I know because I tried, neither would a million tears, I know because I cried
~ You can close your eyes to things you don't wanna see, but you can't close your heart to things you don't wanna feel.
~i still cry every night thinking of those words you said to me.
~I've never wanted somebody as much as I wanted you. Strong,deep and oh different.


I STILL LOVE YOU SO DAMN BADLY !!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

“Who wants that? I’d rather choose to fall in love and be hurt. Sometimes I can’t even sleep because I love someone too much. And there’s always sadness in our lives. It’s that sad feeling that keeps is going.”

i still want and need you by my side ): even a single msg can make me happy.. i suddenly feel so lonely and empty... feel like crying again ! argh . why am i so weak ?! SSSUUUUNNNNNNYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!! ♥ ♥♥♥♥♥

~ I want you more than anything in the whole world. I don’t want to share you. I want you to be mine, and I want you forever.

I have been trying my best to save this relationship ... Well I believe If both of us still love each other , nth can seperate us a part.. Like wad shirleen told me.. And thanks to her i'm feeling better now though I still upset and tears stil rolling down my cheeck , I need to be strong! But I know I still love him and he still love me and that's all I need to know.. I will never give up on him and I will love him no matter what.. I'm gonna remember what you told me , that I am your first and you will love me no matter what :) I hoped you will remain the same feelings toward me no matter wad :) I love you sunny and I will always love you no matter wad <3 :)

Hey i know i've been pressuring you.. i know i've made you stress,frustrated,annoyed etc.. i couldn't help myself.. i don't know why i really want this relationship to goes on. even with my first stead , i wasn't like this (seriously) there is and there must be something special about your that i can't bear to lose. i knw i've made u angry,sad,i'm sorry.but u nvr fail to tell me that i'm forgiven . thank you :) i really can't believe that this is happening.. everyday before i go to sleep, i wished that we'll patch back and when i woke up, i thought it was just a bad dream(that we broke up) but when i saw your messages i realise it wasn't a dream.. it was rea.. and i start to cry.. i cried alot but i'm not feeling better.. you know wad, when we were about our 2nd or 3rd month, there was once i felt like breaking up with u.but i didn't.. i secretly gave you a chance. hoping that things will be better (so called hoping that there will be miracle) and things do get better :) so why can't u give me a chance ? we will tgt make things better. (it takes two hands to clap) i never regret being with you,  i nvr regret loving you. wad i regret is that i can't make you be mine again ! i;ve done,tried everything i could (not saying i;m wasting my time) but why can't you give yourself a chance? give me a chance? i did told you about my family prob right? i felt like i'm being ignored by them including my bro. and recently my parent had a fight. and you know wad? my mother is thinking of divorcing.. you get wad i mean ? they are too busy wif their stuff that they forget about my bro and i . its like they have not show/give their love to us anymore. so when i met you,when i start loving you,when i start having relationship with you. i feel safe and comfortable and most of all i get to feel your love ! even when we go through thick and thin, i knew that you will always be here with me. i knew i still have you with me. you remember when i'm jealous about you and caili? i was so damn jealous that i cry and hate her cause i scared i will lose you and i scared you will fall for her. but i kew you wouldn't :) you still remember at food court? i was writing something and you thought i was doing math. you know wad i write? i write points/reasons why/wad i enjoyed being with you.. 1)i get to be by your side 2) i get to see you smile 3) i get to hear your laughter 4)i can randomly sing 'you are my sunshine' to you 5)i feel safe and comfortable with you 6)i get to pei you 7) i can/get to hold you 8)i can randomly say' i love you ' to you. 9)i can be myself when i'm around you. 10) i can laugh like a retarded and you don't mind :) 11) i get a goodnight wish and a indirect kiss every night 12) i get to share all my prob wif you. 13) i am happy being with you. For now i may have 13 points but if our relationship goes on, i might have more to add. we've been tgt for 6 month and you wan this to end just like that ? like i said lets give  ourselves a chance? we will tgt make things better? i'm sure and i believe we can. i am willing to wait for you. i am willing to give a chance. but the question lies on you. are you willing to do so ?i really love you from my bottom of my heart. i know just now i've send a msg and say 'for the very last time' ignore that cause i'm gonna give up here. ! i just can't/won't give up on you ! i just hoped you understand how i feel . i hoped you will give yourself,me and our relationship a chance. i will never give up on you! and i hoped not to receive "but i gave up on relationship le" or something like that. i hoped to hear "i'm willing to give another chance and continue this relationship" think carefully.. i'll be waiting for your ans.. i hope not to drop a tears when you ans me .. *finger crossing*
~Athirah

Please give me another chance
We can make things the same
Bring those days back again
All I need is just one chance

All the wonderful moments spent together
We could keep holding on forever
The moments spent in sun and rain
We can bring them back all again

I love you with all my heart
What I just cant do is part
Let us bring back our lost time
I promise everything will be fine

Let me hold you again
I’ll take away all your pain
All I ask is for another chance 
Just look at me and give me a chance

You can trust me all right
I promise you never again will we fight
Forget the harsh words and come out of the dark moods
Show me your lovely smile
That same one at least for a while
Don’t break my heart 
It’ll tear me apart
I can never ever leave you
‘Cos darling I truly love you

There’s a vacuum in every heart 
But you’ll not find that in mine
‘Cos in every bit and every part 
You’ll find your portrait shine

You can’t be so unkind
Walking away leaving me behind
Trust me again
Give me your hand
Deep inside I feel the pain 
Of a broken heart that needs to be mend
Its only you who can heal
And change the way I feel

I know I’ve hurt you and made your heart pain too
Give me another chance
I’ll take away the darkness from your life

My heart aches if you cry
Please wipe those tears dry
Let this dark night get over
And let a new morning enter our lives
I want to show you how much I care
I want you back at any cost
Our love cannot be come the past

Please o please let me try again 
I can take away all your pain
All i ask is one more chance
Just a chance… A mere chance