Today went band room at 3pm to try the band uniform :) the blazer i took size 'xs' so big sia -.- then when i took size 's' it fits me :D lol.. the the white shirt was big too ): but i never change as i am too lazy to find one :( cause was like too many clothes there and don't know which one is boys one and which one is girls one cause all looked the same and they were mixed tgt :x had a hard time finding the ideal one lo :( so i got mine liao except for the white shirt its big :x but if wear blazer then cannot see :) but if never wear blazer leh... it will be big lo :x :( can't wait for investiture this sat!(yeah right) i got solo leh!!! SOLO :) !! ); but sad to say my family don't wan support me de so i perform my solo to STRANGERS  ): ): oh well nothing can be done here.. :( so gonna buy chocolate for sam (exchange of gifts) i wonder what will he gave us as return? hmm .. But i'm so not looking forward to this saturday ):
i can't bring up the matter liao.. as i know wad i will get in return. and i know i can't bear it. but its killing me inside :x why am i so weak? why can't  i just accept it? why must i dwell on it? why am i such a fool?!