wah.. i've not post for long long time :(

Been busy and don't feel like posting..

Hmmmm... 

Am i doing to much? Why am i letting all the stress to me? Even if i am doing/trying too hard, no one will notice, Even if i want the best out of it, no one knows. Its like as if i am invisible and never get credit. Yes, people now a days very smart, they'll do their way to be NOTICED. Then whats the need of me now? you do on your own la.  No point i do it. Seriously no point.

Why must he always be praised? Have not i improve?! Again, am i invisible? -.- this is seriously freaking irritating ! 

ugh enough of all this !

What she said is true, i may lost someone, but there is sure someone better that will go to you. That really happen to me :) Without knowing , someone actually waited for me just to walk home together. Even if we have to separate at the bus stop. Thats pretty nice :D

At the same time, i find a certain people very irritating :( like stalker :( I don't feel like going to facebook anymore. Because whenever i appear online, POP there is a message. UGH. and it never stop. The poking on facebook becomes reality :<  seriously WHAT THE HELL ! :< 

well... nothing else to say. BYE .

If I can be 101% aware of my attitude and words towards people, I won't hurt people's feelings. I am human. I can't run awat frm all this. I make mistake. And I realise what I was doing. Why whenever you'Re angry, you must crack the past ? Am i really that 'evil' in your eyes ? Maybe . I seriously don'T know what to do.. I'm hurting inside, WHEN ON EARTH CAN ALL THIS STOP ?!!! :'(

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Ahhh... I am so obsessed with two songs in beethoven virus !! I wan to play can yoy hear me and passion on piano !!! Can yoy hear me, the song so sad :( the singer sang it very well !! Ahh.. Listen to it over and over again . I also wan learn passion. So nice !! Gahhhhh..

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There is just TOO many things I want to do in life. Currently I have a sudden interest in violin :D I also want to continue and bulid up my skills in piano.

I am seeing my future.. Haha. I don'T know if I can achieve all that :( but I will fight for what I want.. :D

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Currently watching Beethoven virus ! :) sooooo damn nice !! :D been watching it since yesterday until midnight :o HEHE. tomorrow going back to school and do as many homework i can :o
hehe bye. continue watching BV ;)

Okay long time nvr post le. So here it goes ALL abt band camp :D
Day one.
Syaqim and I were the only major running the band. was tough. Especially for us to decide certain things. I was freaking pissed off with someone. Simply doesn't want to AT LEAST listen what i have to say to support my stand. Simply want to go his own casual way :< WTF.
Not surprise for me to hear the sec one say that i am fierce. Well i am turning into a EVIL GIRL for the band to go FAR. well some may not understand. Perhaps one day they might. Its hard for me to handle things with my own friends. esp when they are doing something wrong or simply do not want to listen to major's instruction. Perhaps, they treat more like a friend then a major :/ thats hard and thats when i have to be evil. Not evil as in really evil but more fierce, firm and strict.
Day two
pretty better :D at curtain parts though. BUT i fall sick :( At night i couldn't sleep as i keep sneezing, coughing and also having a damn painful headache ;( went to mr oh and he took my temperature. Lucky no fever if not he said he will send me to hospital :o And that was at 2 AM :( Then mr oh ask miss huang and miss nur to bring me sleep with them :D woke up in the morning feeling much better UNTIL miss huang told me i have to go home. Cuase i've been coughing throughout the whole night and i am not that well :( WOAH :( then she walked me home until lift lobby :O hahas. so now i'm home blogging instead of resting :D
haiz. sian... seriously sian... :'(

Thats me when i was young. Yes i know, so different. LOL. i was told that when i was baby, i am so close with my father. Oh well, i said back "That time i was young and don't even know anything. Can't even think. Now is a total different thing alr." and she went speechless. LOL

Ugh... first week of holiday so busy with planning everything :( had to brainstorm everything. And i feel like i am doing everything ! :( I don't know if this is a gift or a challenge for me... i just don't know how to handle things .  I remember you once said "we will understand that you are just doing your job" but..... :(

haiz.... 

i know.. i have eyes, i can see. I have ears, i can hear. I have heart, i can feel !

Everyone is treating me differently alr. THANK YOU VERY MUCH !