Today wad such such such a bad luck for me.. Bad day for me! I was irritated by my patner! She keep talking to the girls behind then she sat side ways and shake her leg -.- nvr pay attention then ask me teach.. I lazy teach i just hack care.. Thn band, someone made my flute fell and thanks ar! Now my flute SPOIL! not even an apology was given! _l_ now i have to bear with a SPOILED FLUTE -.- then aft full band when cleaning my piccolo, the cloth stuck and was very hard to remove even jie zhi could not take it out. So had to trouble sir, and it made sir's stomach hurt :( haizxx.. Wad a day for me. Even my mood like sotsot de.. Haixxx

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Woo i am posting early in the morning on my way to sch :)
What a way to start my day. -.- well its has been the same through out.. It will always start with a tears and end with a tears. How wonderfool is that... How i wish my life is as plain and as pure as a white wall.. Now my life of white wall is full of black spot all over and cracks all over too! It will soon collapse anyway :D
Reaching sch le. BYE.

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last night, I cried . Again . Thinking and wondering why must it be me ? why must it happen to me ? WHY WHY WHY ? -.- i tried to keep on smiling and laughing though. but inside i am really dying -.-

Ahaha :D random :)

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People don't understand me or is me who don't understand people?! Is sure people don't understand me! Thats why i am always the one at fault! The one who is always blamed!!!! Irritating!!! Pissed off man!!!! If only my dream was real.. If only i was not born on this earth! If only my life is so bright!! :'( :'( its beyond my hands to control all this.. Perhaps its fated to for me to be born in this kind of situation(s)!!!!! :'( which i don't wish to be! Which i don't like! Which i hate to be in!!

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for my beloved;
open up my heart,
and see that i love you so much.
i truly do.

Yay new blogskin :D ahaha.. since i got nothing to do.

Today is Saturday ! and i wake up so early -.- haiyo ! can't get myself back to sleep le :(
early in the morning, people spamming me with their missed calls le. because i didn't go for the sports heats ! :D ahaha ! Alot of people frm my class didn't go too ! Monday mdm aishah will sure talk abt it -.-
i had a bad dream yesterday night. but i don't remember abt wad :( sad.

I am living a life full of darkness! Not even a single sunlight can be seen in my life. How pathetic..
Go on and let out your frustration to me.. Go on and scold me. Go on and blame me. I am ALWAYS at fault. I am selfish. I am inconsiderate. I am bad girl and a bad daughter..
You made one very very very wrong mistake.. Which is to bring me alive here on this earth... Regret it right?
You don't even know that i tried to cooperate! At least i tried!! Rather than not! Despite my homeworks and tiredness i still did help you! Did you even at least said a thank you?! NO! but if he were to help you with one simple thing, you will praise him and compare him with me! BIASED! BIASED! BIASED! i tell you i had enough! I am suffering inside you don't even know! School different case, home different case!! Where on earth is peace for me?! No one know my misery! Have i ever tell you or complain anything to you?! I did not! He made mistake, you blame and scold me! Can all this nonsense stop??!!!!
I am really tired!!!! I am tired facing all types of challenges! I am tired crying all night letting out the pain.. I am truely tired.. Can you please give me some peace?! :'( :'( :'(

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Finally its Thursday tomorrow ! :D a day off from studies and a day full of music ! :D YAY ! :) Will be leaving class @ 9am :) and will be back @ 2.30pm :) one minutes spend in the Singapore conference hall cost $12! Can you imagine if sir were to give us 5 min toilet break?! What an expensive toilet break it would be ! ^-^ AHAHA !:D will get ready my blazer later ba :) 


i am not going to care anymore ~
How i wish i could be a bird and fly far away from all the problems.
I am not here to waste and taste my salty tears. I am here not here to feel how depression is like. I had enough. I am not here to feel the pains. I had enough of EVERYTHING. 
Sooner or later, IMH will be new home sweet home for me :D and those people will be dearly best friends! ahaha! wow 0.0 
what is my purpose on this earth? i've yet to find out.. 
my life is so lifeless and miserable... i had enough.. i am sick and tired of reflecting upon myself.. 

I felt so weird going out alone, eat dinner alone. LOL. After sch, i went hospital alone. Yay this time round doctor never scold me :) waited for my number so long sia :x aft that went eat alone. Lols. Since i am with uniform everyone stare at me 0.0 aiyo. Then walk to yishun mrt with my heavy bag :( then got one constrution infront, i didn't noticed, i step onto the wet siment. Then the workers scold me. My fault meh? Is they never warn me lo. Never put any sign also! Then anyhow scold people! Siao. Aiyo so tired sia.. I want thursday come faster please.... I wan to have a day off from studies and a day full of music ^-^ ahaha :)

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I did not sabo you neither did i want to make things worse! You should not have said that in the first place. In fact that was not the first time you criticize people and make people sad. Like i've said, you done this too many times liao.. I accepted you apology too many times liao.. but you keep on repeating the same old mistake. Only now i took the action! If no one were to make any action, you might discourage more and more people that can make things turn out even WORSE. You did apologise to me the other the day but it was hard for me to accept your apology this time round. I am sorry that i took this kind of actions. My intention was not to sabo you, but to resolve this problem ASAP. SYF is coming, if i did not take any action, you might discourage more people and they might pull themselves out form the SYF when we want the whole band to be on stage...  

You had the balls to stab and insult people, and didn't have the melons to own up. Grow some watermelons la!
You think a sorry is enough? i know your attitude okay! I've been giving you lots of chance and i've been surviving with you and your nonsense for TWO YEARS! This isn't the first time it happen. In fact i am not the only victim. But i dare and took up the courage to tell the teachers. Because i do not want this to happen to others too ! and i do not want people leaving just because of this. Like one of the history. I know You felt guilty but Why you never own up? Why must you ask me if i were the one that told the teachers? Why must this case be brought up on monday again? Why don't you want to settle it just now? Coward? Or you don't even realise you were the one? I do not want to pick you out or point finger at you... I just hope, you own up ASAP ! you have the guts to stab and insult people, so why don't you have the guts to own up? the longer you made us wait for you to own up, i will feel the pressure and i will think i am at fault for bringing out the case. so please..~ WAKE UP !

Am i at fault? I doubt so. Perhaps history repeats again. But it repeat to make things become better. There isn't a perfection moment in life.. Perhaps i am at fault. But i could not take it any longer! You are hurting and discriminated me so badly. I am not just doing for my own sake but I am doing this for EVERYONE sake. If you are at fault, i suggest you go own up to the teachers... This might just turn into a big case :'( i am feeling the tention now.. :'(

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